Toeval? de buizerd en de merel, Coincidence? the Hawk and the blackbird.

In dit leven is niets toeval, althans voor mij niet. We gaan steeds meer richting 21 december 2012, waarbij we een tijdperk gaan afsluiten en zoals mijn vriendin afgelopen weekend zei "dan is het 3 dagen donker, want dat wordt zo voorspeld". Ik schoot in de lach en zei " ik verwacht het niet, maar ik laat mij graag verrassen". Het hele weekend voel ik "iets", het is voor mij lastig om te omschrijven wat ik dan precies voel, maar ik weet inmiddels uit ervaring dat er een en ander in de lucht hangt en meestal zijn dit geen leuke dingen. Wat bleek in de afgelopen 2 dagen, een grensrechter bij het voetballen doodgeschopt (ik geloof mijn ogen en oren niet, de wereld is gek geworden, denk ik dan), enorme puinhoop op de A 20 vanwege een behoorlijk ongeval met dodelijke afloop en wat een feestelijk moment voor Carré moest gaan worden eindigde in een nachtmerrie met het overlijden van acteur Jeroen WIllems. Maar mijn voorgevoel was nog niet helemaal weg. Vanochtend zit ik geconcentreerd te werken aan mijn eindwerkstuk voor de familieopstellingen training. Opgeschrikt, door een gekrakeel voor mijn deur, ik sta ik op vanachter mijn bureau en kijk.

Een buizerd is geland met een merel in zijn klauwen en het was het gekrijs van de merel wat me zo uit mijn concentratie haalde. Mijn maag krimpt ineen, als ik dat beestje in doodsangst in de klauwen van de buizerd zie. Mijn eerste impuls is om de deur open te gooien zodat hij zijn prooi loslaat, maar ja, bedenk ik mij dan nog op tijd, het is wel voedsel voor de buizerd. Het is een akelig gezicht, maar dat vind ik altijd, zelfs bij prachtige natuurfilms wend ik vaak mijn blik af wanneer er een slachtpartij plaatsvindt. De buizerd kijkt mij met een doordringende blik aan en schat in wat ik wel of niet achter dat glas zal gaan doen. De merel ligt met zijn bek open amechtig naar adem te snakken en hij is in doodangst door de greep van de machtige klauwen van de buizerd. De buizerd begint met een fantatisme de merel als een kip kaal te plukken terwijl de merel nog steeds leeft. Zodra hij weer wat veren heeft uitgespuugd werpt de buizerd een blik in mijn richting, waant zich veilig en gaat direkt weer door met kaalplukken.

Nog nooit heb ik zo van dichtbij een buizerd mogen aanschouwen met een prooi, helaas voor de merel, maar ik was wel in de gelukkige omstandigheid er veel foto's van te kunnen maken. Eten en gegeten worden, survival of the fittest, tja dat is de natuur. Nadat de buizerd flink heeft geplukt en er een wirwar aan veertjes voor mijn deur ligt, werpt hij nog een laatste blik naar me, draait zich om en vliegt weg met in zijn klauwen de merel.

Ik mag toch altijd maar weer hopen dat wij mensen wat beschaafder zijn, na een fiks aantal eeuwen evolutie. Ik duik weer achter mijn pc en terwijl ik weer zit te werken aan het eindwerkstuk gaat mijn telefoon. Een aardige stem vertelt mij dat zij mijn blog had gelezen over Abydos en zo zei zij "ik zal maar met de deur in huis vallen". Ik ben direkt op mijn hoede, want alle banden met Abydos heb ik verbroken vanwege alle duisternis, zwarte magie en andere narigheid die ik daar gezien en ervaren heb. Sinds een aantal jaren verneem ik niets meer over Abydos. Maar zo vervolgt zij in het gesprek "Kan het zijn dat mensen daar bezeten raken"? Direkt schoot mijn lieve Canadese vriendin en spirituele zuster te binnen. Zij gaf mij een tarot reading in december 2011 in Luxor en één van de dingen die ze me toen vertelde was het volgende. "Caroline, this year (2012) you will hear a lot about Abydos and it is coming to you in a way you won't expect". Ik val van mijn stoel, dit is inderdaad nummer zoveel die me dit jaar benadert met narigheid uit dat dorp. We hebben een lang gesprek en ook zij had dezelfde ervaringen. Ze bedankte me voor het gesprek en ook voor de bevestiging die ze van mij kreeg over de dingen die ze daar gezien had. Voor mij was het eveneens fijn omdat wat ik toen zag, niet iedereen ziet of te zien krijgt. Hierdoor heb ik mij lange tijd een eenling gevoeld. Maar ook zij had gezien wat ik indertijd "helder" had waargenomen. Voor haar was dit alleen maar heel beangstigend. Voor mij niet, want wat ik toen zag was voor mij het sein om onmiddellijk uit Abydos te vertrekken. Eten of gegeten worden, het werd me ineens duidelijk waarom de buizerd uitgerekend voor mijn deur landde.

The Osirion, the doorstep to the underworld. Coincidence doesn’t exist according to my believe. Increasingly we are heading to December the 21st. An era which will mean an closure. As my good friend said a few days ago "it is going to be three days darkness, because that has been predicted." I laughed at this extraordinary news and said to her, "I do not expect it, but surprise me". The whole weekend I felt and sensed "something", it is difficult for me to describe what exactly I do feel. As a matter of fact I do know now from experience of the past that there is something in the air and usually it means trouble. Well what happened during the last two days, a football linesman has been kicked to death (I did not believe my eyes, when i saw the news, the world has gone crazy), furthermore there was a huge mess on the A 20 due to the result of all kind of big accidents and what should be a great and nice time for Carré (our national theatre) ended in a nightmare with the death of a famous actor Jeroen Willems during the rehearsals. But my hunch was still there. This morning I was really focused to work as there has to be a final project for my course in family related soul/energy work. All of a sudden there was a fray at my front door, I stood up from behind my desk and I looked outside my window. A buzzard has landed just at my doorstep with a blackbird in its claws and it was the cry of the blackbird what pulled me out of my concentration. My stomach cringes when i look at this little creature in agony tighly held by the clutches of the buzzard. My first impulse was to open the door so he would let go of his prey. But in the same time i think, this little feathered animal is also food for the buzzard. It's a horrible sight, even in beautiful films about nature i do often look to the other way when a massacre occurs. The buzzard looks at me with a penetrating gaze and estimates what I will do or not do behind my window. The blackbird has his mouth wide open, it looks as he is gasping for air and is in agony by the grip of the powerful claws of the buzzard. The buzzard starts plucking the blackbird as it was already a bald chicken. Until that moment the blackbird is still alive. The buzzard busy plucking and spitting out the feathers he gives me a glance, imagine himself safe and starts plucking again. I had never been so close to a buzzard holding and killing his prey. Unfortunately for the blackbird, the whole scene could be photographed. Eat or to be eaten, survival of the fittest, well that's life. The buzzard left a jumble of feathers on my doorstep and it became quite. The bird gave me one last look and all of a sudden he took off with the blackbird in his claws. Hopefully, we as human beings are more civilized. The whole scene made me feel a bit dazzled and when i started working again there was a miraculous telephone call within 5 minutes after the massacre. A really nice voice is telling me she has been reading my blog about Abydos. And as she continues, she tells me "I will be straight with you" This makes me really wary as i cut all ties a couple of years ago due to all the darkness, black magic and other nasty things I had seen and experienced during the time i lived there. She continues and ask me "Could it be possible that people are becoming hellbent"? I was shocked, as this reminds me about my dearest Canadian friend, spiritual sister and teacher. She did me a tarot reading in December 2011. We spent quite some time together in Luxor and one of the things she told me was this. "Caroline, this year (2012) you will hear a lot about Abydos and it comes to you in a way you would never expect ." I was stunned, this indeed again is another person approaching me year with trouble coming from that village. We had a long conversation and she had the same experience as i did almost 5 years ago. She thanked me for the confirmation which she apparently desperately needed. For me it was good as well, as what I saw then, not everyone see or can see. Unable to share it with other people it felt like a loner. But she had seen too what I previously "saw as a clairvoyant". To her this was just very frightening. To me it was just THE SIGNAL to leave Abydos immediately. Eaten or being been eaten, all of a sudden it became clear to me why that buzzard landed on my doorstep.

Abydos, Light & Darkness

My beloved Seti I temple at Abydos came to my mind again when I started my classical herbal treatment, to help me to get rid of all effects of anaesthetic , bruises and other injuries relating to my operation. The treatment does not only work on the physical body but also on the emotional, mental and finally the soul. And so being in the middle of this process of 2 weeks Abydos, came up and up. All the three temples at Abydos have very strong but different and pure Energies. They Work on different levels and they can help you with your growth, and initiate a transformation within your life. Entering Abydos there is a large building on your left side, with the name of Horus on it. It must have been about 9 years ago when I was sat having a cup of tea and an Egyptian men stepped out of a very expensive jeep. I looked at the man and at his car as I was surprised to see such a wealth, as Abydos is really a poor village. He came over to speak to me and offered me to show me around his building and explained to me what he was doing. He also told me (according to my standards) his extreme high prices. He told me he was a healer, I saw at that ime something completely different. This man told me he was the son of Ohm Seti. I really needed to bite my lip, and I thought this man really needs to see a good shrink. A good friend of mine, who joined me at that time, witnessed what was happening and had being told. I noticed that the building itself has a very low and dark energy. I took his leaflets advertising his oils and prices and left. I forgot the whole incident and continued my visit to my beloved temple. Out of the blue i received an email from a Dutch couple who were apparantely befriended with that man. This healer asked them to write to me as he was really worried about me and i needed to contact him. I was stunned. As i can see and feel energy, his only intention was to get his claws into me. So i politely answered that mail, and to me it was cased closed. My Guides and Angles really protected me when I decided to move over from Holland to Egypt. At that time the house i lived in, had a very strong, high and powerful energy, and was perfect for my spiritual work. I met a man who became a friend over the years and he introduced me to Mr Mahmoud. (well known in Abydos) and straight away there was a spark of recognition, as we have had lived lifes together in the past. The only thing that really impressed me was his big Ego.. . as it was that obvious from the first time i met him. During the time i lived in Abydos I met a certain M. from Cairo, in Abydos he is almost a saint, as he comes from a very wealthy family and according to others is very spiritual, to be honest I doubt this as his guests were mainly women, with whom he shared the same bedroom with. This is a bad thing for an Egyptian to do and I was really shocked by this double morality, sorry to say but generally speaking most of the men all have a big 2 nd chakra's problem and they are trying you to believe they are working with and from their fourth chakra.

They instinctively know which woman will fall for their charms. And once the woman does, the manipulation will start. They will promise you heaven on earth and they subtle make you do things as you are under their Spell. But in the end, the women will end up bankrupt and probably heartbroken.

A long time ago, an English lady who was very spiritual went to live in Abydos and fell in love with one of those local healers. I know it from first hand as she told this me herself. She lost £36.000 and when she didn't had more money left he dumped her. Having lived in egypt and done many many tours (also to Abydos) I am very well aware of many incidents where tourists have been abused financially by Egyptians they have befriended. I am also aware that its a difficult area to talk about it. I know many horror stories of people that have been abused, financially, emotionally and last but not least physically.

Unfortunately there is nothing i can do to help.I know everybody has to live his own Karma and there is nothing else but to leave it for others to fall into the same traps when maybe I could have helped them step sideways from the traps. And this is why i decided to write the blog about Abydos, after being contacted over the last 2 years by people who have bad experiences by those local healers. If your energy is good the temple of Seti invites you, if not the spirits will kick you out.I lived there 4 months full time, in complete isolation in the house, at that time there was a big internet cable problem, so all the Arabic countries were cut off. Mobile connection has been difficult during that time. During those 4 months I asked myself the same question every day….Caroline what do you chose for, the lightness of or the darkness......the answer is not difficult, but the temptation to do something terrible and horrible was really appealing. I lived in hell but passed THE test. As Misty (Canadian Angel Worker) said to me, there is dark and there is light, they both are part of who we are. Black Magic is very common in Egypt and practised by both men and women also some healers work with black magic, so after 5 years it really made sense why I had to leave Abydos, to protect myself from certain people. I feel really sorry as I received a disturbing phone call from a very nice man from the South in France, he was totally freaked out. He had visited this healer several times in the last couple of years, and he got in real big trouble, as there was a death threat. He called me to ask for help.

Recently (april 2013) a young woman who really got into deep trouble asked me for help too. It seemed that one of those local healers got involved. She got psychic attacks,  not only from him but also from other well know healers.  Unfortunately,  i was unable to do anything as she took her own life.  

Looking back, I am always be very well protected and Guided and I thank my spirit guides a couple of years ago a small spiritual group went to Abydos for a cleansing, as it needed to be done. One of the ladies received a very good cleansing and became pregnant. I had predicted this local healer another child in 2007. And as he used to do, he just laughed at me. A lot of my predictions came true. Knowing there is always a reason.... But he is also human and could have make an other choice..... this new baby must be very humiliating for all parties involved. Healers offer their services to several Dutch spiritual tour operators. Significant detail is that they all are female tour operators. If you would like to go on a spiritual journey to Abydos ........I suggest you give it very good thought, first of all if it’s your path? And second of all with whom you would like to go? A trip that Costs you about € 2000,00 is outrageous, in other words you really get ripped off! You don't need a healer from there as spirits of the temples will guide you, and help you and give you whatever you need during your spiritual (individual) journey they Will lead you through all kind of phases and stages and trust them, within the temples you will be very safe.
What happened over the last couple of years put a lot of pressure on the friendship between my dear Egyptian friend and me. As I prefer to life in the light and have a free soul, it meant that I have had to let go of people who were very dear to me. And Last but not least i really need to thank my Agent from Luxor, who has always been supporting me and warned me, straight from the beginning. And because of his warnings I don't have any financial losses. The only thing that happened to me is that i got confronted with so many hypocrocy and lies and this is something i can't and won't live with that. As a 33 that's absolutely out of the question. Those who are upset by other peoples (or my) experiences live in fear and in control. I chose to let go of these lower energies by sharing my journey with those who choose to read. Those who will not benefit by it, do not need to read my stories.

Latest Update 1/6/2013 Request to all who have had very bad experiences (financially/emotionally/physically/ domestic violence/ loverboys/ scams) with Egyptian men who started relationships with foreign women or men, to abuse them. There is a filming crew, who wants to make a documentary about these kind of practices. The documentary will be broadcast in sptember 2013. They need people who want to share their experiences. This includes ofcourse all of Egypt. You can email to: beznessalert@gmail.com Noor Stevens wrote a book about it. It is in Dutch, the title of this book is: Kus Kus Bezness. Editor is Meulenhoff/de Boekerij 2011.<.p>

Latest Update 1/2/2020 Untill 2019, unfortunately nothing has changed yet, the "show"still goes on over there and people are still being scammed.